| fun |
[Feb. 24th, 2005|12:14 am] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | postal service | ] |
the mae concert was amazing, now i regret not going last night too like i could have!!! one thing that is funny is, i have decided i am not as young as i used to be... i felt so old amongst the 12 year olds and all i wanted to do was sit down... i actually got tired, i am so lame. it was super fun though, i miss stuff like that, i used to do it at home all the time and it hadnt quite happened yet here. hmmm... so many things to think about... teaching project, papers, interviews, 20 units???, work???, spring break!!!.... all that good stuff, it should keep me busy... oh and no more sleeping until ten when i was supposed to be at work at 8... not good! |
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| funny |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|11:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | dorky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the format (my newest favorite) | ] |
okay, i just need to remember this day because it was extremely random and funny... i dropped a glass bottle in trader joes and the was funny, i fell off of my drawer thing in my room while attempting to get a pot (like full on fell on the ground... kinda scary but it was fine so that makes it entertaining), i almost ran over an old man bc i was trying to avoid a motorcycle guy (not really that close, but the old man gave me the meanest look ever), i almost got hit by a car at the arc bc i am an idiot and walked right in front of it... anything else???? oh ya the car wash, i can even describe that... i feel really dumb today, i cant believe all of this happened in like 12 hours, funny stuff |
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| omg, wtf? |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|01:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing but the sounds from next door... haha, im serious! | ] |
wow, i cant even describe what just happened... lets just say i was this close to peeing my pants... probably the funniest experience since i came to irvine, thank you god for that. what a week, ups and downs and ups and more downs... at least i am ending the night with an extremely high up!!!! |
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| wow |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|08:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | well "shake that ass" playin next door.... if that counts? | ] |
Wow, sometimes i am so good... i totally called what would happen today like perfectly! wouldnt you know it.
I want to be impressed....... |
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| smelling like smoke and too annoyed to sleep.... |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|01:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | snow patrol | ] |
To start with the happy stuff, i decided that theme parties are really amazing, i had so much fun dressing up, and i was sober the whole night! I had a really good night until i got home and answered my phone, i almost didnt too bc i was about to go to sleep, but i answered it and that was a mistake for sure. Uh, why cant people just be normal? i mean really? i dont know what is going on, everyone is jumping to conclusions on so many levels, it just keeps happening. i just want to have fun and relax... i was just about to go to bed, but after the wonderful drunk dial i just recieved i am way to annoyed to sleep. i want to just record everything he said so he can listen to it in the morning, i have never heard him be a bigger ass and he is an ass a fair amount of the time. i am so sick of his mood swings, he is such a baby. and i already know what will happen he will call tomorrow and say he doesnt remember... but i dont no if i even want to answer that call... im sure i will, we have been friends for too long for this crap. I am so disappointed in him, i guess i just expected a lot more than he could offer... actually he is a great guy except when he drinks which lately is all of the time and i really cant do anything about it. the relationship has changed so much since he went college crazy, now he just another loser but he used ot be something special and one of my best friends. it is so crazy how i am not close to anyone, and if he keeps acting like this, i dont think i can handle it for very long. WHATEVER... Now that i have vented my frustrations about the ass i am going to go to bed smelling like smoke (really really double yuck!) bc everyone at the party was smoking. lately i just cant win... |
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| SO awake!! |
[Jan. 7th, 2005|12:00 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sparta... very softly | ] |
The last week or so it has been almost impossible for me to sleep, it is so strange, i cant fall asleep until like 3 in the morning. it sucks bc no one else is awake except for me and now that i am back at school and have my lovely roommate, i have to be quiet. I dont get it!!! i am going to have a very interesting weekend, i have an insane amount of reading to do plus visitors... i wonder how that will all work out?? why are there no good shows in the winter? a good band should do a tour and they would do really well bc no one else does them... anyways, hmmmm.... i am just trying to kill time, it is like i am wired or something, i thought maybe the crying from my girl would make me sleeping, but no. i dont think i want to go home for spring break, i kinda just want to go and do something super fun and exciting... i will need to work on that. i saw the movie spanglish and i think i want to see it again, i really liked it, i want to do that before it leaves theaters. I think that the reason i cant sleep is because i have been thinking about a lot of things, but i cant help it. everything i am worrying about is completley random and unnecessary, but i still lay in bed and go over it and over it. i used to do this in high school too, and now i forget how i got myself to stop, i did something but i dont really remember, this is very frustrating! it is so strange how time passes so fast, it seems like first quarter just flew by and i have a feeling winter will be like that too. i hate when you dont know if something is right, like you want it to be and you kind of envision it to be the "right" thing, but you have no idea... i am big on structure and clarity, and most things around me right now are neither of those things. maybe that is why i cant sleep. i have never been a big writer, but it does make you think about what is behind things and kind of look at everything objectively, that is good. Well, i dont really know what else to write about, i need to be more creative with my topics, maybe someday... |
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| hmmm.... |
[Jan. 5th, 2005|09:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | feeling a synthetic kinda love... | ] |
Back in irvine, i feel much better... my parents are coming on friday and so is kristins sister... that should make for a busy week! i really dont know how i am gonna handle my 3 hour class, it is way too long... lots of classes tom i am scared my womens studies teacher sounds like a nazi but i am hopeing for the best!!! |
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| yuck |
[Jan. 2nd, 2005|07:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i dont even know at this point | ] |
i have been looking forward to going back to irvine, now i feel like i shouldnt be leaving... yuck yuck yuck... why does this have to happen???? |
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| random |
[Dec. 29th, 2004|05:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | mischievous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ben kweller | ] |
it is so weird when you know something is gonna happen but there is no good reason for it to happen and it still does. uhhh.... why???? so confused... i got the three most random phone calls i have gotten in quite some time and i got them all last night. like who would start a message with "i know you hate me and we havent talked in a long time and im an asshole, but..." who??? ex boyfriends should not have phones when they are bored... they do dumb things. very interesting. yay for dinner tonight downtown at tower cafe, i love that place, me and kim are gonna have 'hella' fun (i like to say that sometimes). i love how really random stuff happens to me a lot lately, everyday pretty much something odd happens. hmmm... i cant decide whether to stay here for new years or go to chico... chico is supposed to be fun???? i dunno! we will see... today was much deserved i have to say and it was wonderful! i need to be better i hate being sick and it has been a long time. hmmm.... see even this was random, i cant help myself. |
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| song |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|02:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | weird | ] |
| [ | music |
| | this song!!! | ] |
Photobooth"
I remember when the days were long,
And the nights when the living room was on the lawn.
Constant quarreling, the childish fits, and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman.
All the slander and double-speak
Were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean
Anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth.
And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will put your hard heart away.
You were so condescending..
And this is all that's left:
Scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.
Cup your mouth to compress the sound,
Skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town.
And everything that I said was true,
As the flashes blinded us in the photobooth.
Well, I lost track, and then those words were said.
You took the wheel and you steered us into my bed.
Soon we woke and I walked you home,
And it was pretty clear that it was hardly love.
And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending.
And this is all that's left:
Scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.
And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending,
As the alcohol drained the days.
And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending.
And this is all that's left:
The empty bottles, spent cigarettes.
So pack a change of clothes, 'cause it's time to move on.
SOOOOOOO WEIRD!!!! |
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| sick again! |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|11:54 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | keane... somewhere only we know.... really nice song | ] |
oh my gosh, i think it is amazing that i have been sick every christmas since 8th grade... i mean come on! i havent been sick all year but as soon as christmas comes i am sick, it sucks. oh, yay for kristin going to irvine next year, i am soo sooo soooo happy you have no idea! i really hate being sick especially when i have to go hang out with family all night... the head count thus far is 75, it is gonna be crazy for sure and i will just want to go to bed like every other year when i am sick. break is flying by, i cant believe i will be going back to school so soon, i have decided that i am going to make this quarter really fun, i havent decided how or anything, but i will do it! i want to go look at christmas lights, i like christmas lights... maybe i will do that tonight. i want to know how cold it is in irvine, i am getting used to the cold here... i really hope it will be warm and sunny when i get back, i want to wear skirts for some reason, i dont no why i am just in that kind of mood lately???? |
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| i love parties |
[Dec. 22nd, 2004|05:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mae | ] |
hmmm... i have learned that i am not a very good party host and i am very glad kristin is so good at it!! i had fun though and that is what counts. i cant wait to get the pictures, they are going to be very funny, oh and champagne is gross and that was a very bad idea on my part, i will remember that for future events. what a random night though, very strange... |
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| everything is different |
[Dec. 18th, 2004|10:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | good old death cab | ] |
i cant wait to go to san francisco tom., i remember now why i wanted to leave... this is such a boring place. i forgot about kids while i have been in college, i miss them, i have babysat a million since i came home and i need to see them more at school, they are so fun. everything has changed so much since i left in august, the people i used to trust are not the same people they were... maybe i am different too. i have never been in a situation before where i lost friends and didn't immediatly have new ones, it kinda sucks. hopefully when i get back to school i will have better luck, i really hope. i never thought that i wouldnt have lauren, but her being here and everyone leaving made her a whole different person, i dont understand and i dont think i ever will. i think it is amazing that my little circle of friends is going through more drama than we ever did in high school, all of it is so dumb, do we really need to pick sides? i mean come on but i guess i dont need people like that anyways, right? it is just so frustrating to care when all i want is not to care. uhhh... anyways, i am very excited about me and kristin's christmas party, it will be wonderful and nerdy and perfect. i feel like my mother throwing a dinner party like this, but i know it will be fun! also i cant wait for new years... it is my second favorite fun holiday (the 4th of july is just the best, nothing can compete with that) and it better be good this year!!! |
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| hmmm |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|10:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | steel train | ] |
some people make life exciting.... |
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| bored |
[Dec. 14th, 2004|04:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | old ataris... fun music! | ] |
umm u know u are bored when going to the gym sounds like fun and you can't wait to go to work...ya. |
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| home |
[Dec. 11th, 2004|04:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | christmas music... im a loser | ] |
I am finally home... there is not much to do here at all, it sucks bc everyone else is still in school! i really like doing nothing though, at least so far, but i can see that get boring really fast! and also there are no good shows in sac. during break... i hope i find out about one. |
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